problem: i'm having expectations, and being disappointed because i don't feel like i'm being appreciated...

solution: stop caring.

middle child syndrome is raging badly lately. hormonal? probably.

i'm frustrated but physical exhaustion and endorphine doesn't cut the slack anymore, and i'm having hard time being distracted by video games.

hedonistic gratification might be the solution, but friends, going out and fucking a random guy isn't gonna work. it only worked for a bit, and i'm left feeling like i've just eaten the last potato chip in the bag but left unsatisfied..

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it's amusing to be told that i'm overly jaded on the dramas my friends' are having. i just don't see why i should offer half-hearted advice or opinions on matters that i've never experience is all. you're having problems in your relationship? how the fuck am i supposed to help? yeah i guess i've been in love before but it was so one sided it's almost retarded.

i just don't want to deal with it.