chim-chimney

somehow i found myself outside in the middle of a parking lot of the local starbucks with my cousin, chatting about her complicated love life and my lack of one, our bleak future on careers and family, and our duties as daughters to korean parents all the while just chain smoking half our respectable packs of parliaments. it was a good way to waste 40 minutes and get a good look at our lives from different perspectives. the cousin is getting older without a proper relationship to lead her to marriage; the same goes for me, but i still have a little bit of time. our education.. it was just.. a blur and i know i screwed up, but i also know i'm capable of busting my ass to shape up on the last year. on relationship, yes.. i know i don't really try to reinvent myself to be more appealing and i don't really make the effort to court or flirt, but i can't be rushed into such position with my personality. blargh. BLARGh.

man, i had such a good thing going in my head until i spent the entire car ride talking to henry about other stuff. i need to record my thoughts earlier on next time.

also, i just got my mt score for the pchem. i got above the average! hooray! now... if i just keep up with the hw and do well on the final, i might actually have a chance :)

i was driving back from campus after picking up chase from the airport (gah, he called me a 10pm ask if i could give him a ride) and the wave of nostalgia kicked in. la jolla village dr. late at night is always a good kick to the head. bgm- what hurts the most by rascal flatts.

oh so fitting.

oh well.

i'm sleepy now and filled with weird vibes.

i can safely say i miss the relationship more than i miss You.