hourglass...

i'm torn between preparing myself for the worst, or just going on blissfully unaware of the future..

well, the second choice is already troubled by the temptation of the first...
if that even makes any sense.

right now, it's more of the let down song rather than the cheer up song.
no bueno.

it's probably because of the impending time up in north, and despite my giddiness to participate in the festivity, my anxiety over certain things are once again ruining my mood. granted, it's still couple of weeks away (i hope it is.. my sense of time is out of order at the moment) i can't help but to wonder what will come out of this.

i know this for sure though; i hate performing in front of those i do not like. makes me feel like a performing monkey, out there for them to ridicule.

not cool.

oh well.
for the time being, i will be cautious of any info that will bring me down. i need to learn the songs and make sure i don't screw up like last time.

out.