meh, what prompted me to become such a negative and anxious person?
as judgmental as i am, i'm not constantly nitpicking at people i know around me on my free time.. so why do i always assume the others do about me?
this is being self-centered cus honestly, who talks about you once you're not in their presence?
random thought process in order, so don't bother reading too far into what i'm babbling on about.
so i had the most awkward and retarded moment today.
i went to help kim earlier during my time on campus and had to leave cus i actually wanted get some studying done. when it was abour 4:45(?) i decided to leave so i can get ready for the gig tonight and get some grub while i was at it.. but in order to get to my car i had to pass by kim's gallery again.. so i decided why not. by this time, i was sure kim had done all her work and gone home but being myself i decide to jump right over and just drop in on her without calling.. bad thing was that not only was kim not there, but someone i didn't hope to run into was there instead. now, at this point in time i don't mind being around him in a BIG GROUP. 1-on-1 has never been since.. i don't know, last year? even before that? but that aside... i had no intention of starting a conversation so i tried to call kim.. but in the area i was in was not getting signal.. so i had to scoot around the courtyard of mandeville with my craptacular phone signal while looking for another exit.. until i realized that there was no other exit other than the one i just came through.. the one that is in plain view of the said person.
well, crap.
and kim wasn't answering her phone so i deduced that she was no longer there.
well, crap again.
so i'm stuck in the courtyard like an idiot with a book in my hand and holding my phone just standing there stupidly. i can't really just walk casually cus it'll be awkward regarding that i don't think he really saw me get there down.. and all the while i'm like peeking over the wall to see if i was in his visual range...
man, this sounds like a scene from a crappy teen movie.
in conclusion, i ended up just dashing from my part of the courtyard to the stairs with the hopes that i wasn't seen as some retard.
though i'm sure i did.
and i'm sure he's laughing about it now.
*facepalm*
whatever, the gig today was pretty good, and the time after was fun. that rules out the stupid-assery of myself.
and i realized i'm running low on blog worthy photos. either that i have stopped uploading the pictures from my camera to my computer.
hmm.
좋은추억이던, 나쁜추억이던 이제 너에 대한 모든 것은 이른 봄바람 처럼 날라가 버렸어. 뒤에 남겨진 것은 오직 기분 나쁜 겨울의 쌀쌀함과 절망뿐.
이제 이 서클에 남기고 싶은 건 내가 좋은 선배/후배/친구 였다는 추억 뿐이다.
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