terrible.
that alone sums up my commitment to keeping this blog alive. i think i've mentioned how once i become happy, i stop blogging. can't really say that things are bad.. it's been pretty great!
work was stable, for the duration it lasted, and i made good money for the things i did. the people who i worked with were amazing and probably the best bunch of group of people i'd ever work with in my life.
life in sd had been awesome also. the move from eastbluff to costa verde was emotional to say the least. i had to part with some people whom i've lived with for the past 4 years, and that was pretty hard. i also realized that if i had to live with strangeres, i'd NEVER have friends. the people i lived with were ok, but bleh. not my crowd..
moving out of costa verde was even worse because.. well, it meant it was finally over. i'm leaving some place i have come to love in the past 4 years, a place where i had love and heartbreak all in the span of less than two years. i met some of the people i could consider my family, and some whom i could share just about everything with.. of course, they won't get to see every side of me, but it was enough to know they could tolerate me when i was so crazy.. i admit, i didn't get to tell everyone goodbye, BUT it's because i know i'll see them again. goodbyes are for people who will never get to see each other..
one thing i got out of college, besides my BS, is that i will no longer put up with everyday cynicism. i just got so sick of being so down in the dumps all the time, walking on eggshells to make sure nothing was off-putting, and staying so damn passive.. really, it's so much better to just scream out in obscenities, and say the first thing that pops up in my head, and just let loose for once.. i'd rather be happy instead of sit here and reminisce about everything that brings me down. i'd much rather sit here and think about what other things that could happen in the future, and planning out when i'll see my friends next..
so much better that way, don't you think?
of course, i do miss everyone, and i'll miss the short time i spent in sd, BUT!
life goes on, and i refuse to let it drag me down.
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i love you TK!
sorry i didnt get to see you off from SD but that wouldn't have been necessary anyways because with anton off in new york and little old me by myself in san diego, i'm sure i will find my way up to your area enough that it will almost be like you living one building way from you. (and to put this out there even if anton was in san diego, i'm sure i'd be doing the same thing. he'd just be driving me.)
love much.
and i meant to say me.
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