today.

today, i hung out with stephanie. we grabbed chipotle, had boba, and played video games at her place and watched awesome videos on the computer.
we gossiped, we talked, we laughed, and we had a great time.

i came home, and then had sukiyaki for dinner (sukiyaki is LOVE). talked with family and did laundry.

is now watching grey's anatomy reruns, and eating costco cream puffs.

i have the heater on, and i have a comfy blanket.

today was a good day.

it really was.

a good, normal day.

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on the other hand, i am now completely convinced that i am never going to get a boyfriend or get married in the future.

i am too unfeminine and too independent and too.. strong to be the girl the boys want. also, to be told that i have to pretend to get the attention that i want, i'd rather not even bother with it. why shouldn't i be allowed be myself and get the guy? why do i have to be always be in need of help, to giggle and twirl my hair, and to pretend i don't know what goes on in the world just to get the guy to like me? so i can take care of myself and like things that are not for "normal" girls.. what, that makes me completely unsuitable? this is utter bullshit, and i hate the image the media always projects to the society and me having to fit into that stupid mold.

and if you tell me to stop being who i am (ie stop being nerdy) the next time this topic rises up in our convo, i might just punch you in the face.

so sick and tired of hearing it. you think i can handle everything you throw at me?? you think i LIKE being single?